Tell Me You Love Me: A Novel Read online

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  Dedication

  To my stupid, moronic heart,

  Screw. You.

  That’s the last time I listen to your dumb ass.

  CONTENTS

  Dedication

  One - Serena

  Two - Serena

  Three - Serena

  Four - Serena

  Five - Serena

  Six - Serena

  Seven - Kholton

  Eight - Serena

  Nine - Serena

  Ten - Serena

  Eleven - Kholton

  Twelve - Serena

  Thirteen - Serena

  Fourteen - Serena

  Fifteen - Serena

  Sixteen - Kholton

  Seventeen - Serena

  Eighteen - Kholton

  Nineteen - Kholton

  Twenty - Kholton

  Twenty - One - Kholton

  Twenty - Two - Serena

  Twenty- Three - Serena

  Kholton

  Twenty - Four - Serena

  Twenty-Five - Serena

  Twenty - Six - Serena

  Twenty - Seven - Serena

  Kholton

  Twenty - Eight - Kholton

  Twenty - Nine - Serena

  Thirty - Serena

  Thirty - One Kholton

  Thirty- Two - Serena

  Thirty - Three - Serena

  Thirty - Four - Serena

  Thirty – Five - Serena

  Thirty - Six - Serena

  Thirty - Seven - Serena

  Thirty - Eight - Kholton

  Serena

  Thirty - Nine - Kholton

  Forty - Serena

  Forty - One - Serena

  Forty - Two - Serena

  Serena

  Forty - THree - Serena

  Forty - Four - Serena

  Forty - FIve - Kholton

  Epilogue – Kholton

  Acknowledgments

  Let’s Get Social!

  Hit Me Up Anytime!

  One - Serena

  “You’re a Redhead.”

  Location:

  New York

  My date is late.

  Nineteen minutes late.

  I could have overlooked a bit of tardiness, had I been on time. But I showed up fifteen minutes late. On purpose. My plan was to check out Blind Date 23’s looks from the entrance before deciding whether I wanted to keep the date or blow it off.

  This might sound superficial, but aesthetics is number one on the list. The mission I’m on is momentous, painstaking, cautious, and shamelessly superficial.

  It would appear, however, that Blind Date 23 either had the same idea, or I’m being stood up. Which would be unprecedented.

  I’m Serena Bentley. I don’t get stood up.

  Yet as another ten minutes sweep by, I resist the urge to sink low in my seat, the chip on my shoulder shrinking with each ticking second.

  I’ll be damned. I am being stood up, aren’t I?

  I grab my phone and, with furious fingers, tap out a text to my match-maker.

  Serena: Swear to God, I’m gonna kill you, Ric! Mr. Perfect Match is a no-show.

  Alaric: What? I spoke to him about 30mins ago. Said he was 5 mins away.

  Serena: Well, he’s not. And I got here 15-mins late.

  Alaric: Hang on. Lemme call him.

  Alaric Elias. My bestest. Who I’m going to strangle when I see him.

  Sparks is a private matchmaking company which he owns. Blind date pairing for the rich and indifferent. With categories ranging from “Commitment” to “Fling”. I’m in a category that doesn’t exist at Sparks. A customized category, with extra fees for special, meticulous attention.

  I don’t want commitment.

  I don’t want casual.

  I don’t want a fling.

  I want…a baby.

  Not a baby from a plastic cup and syringe, induced by a porn magazine and a tight fist, but a baby made from lust, passion, and intense physical attraction. Not love. Just genuine lust. Sex with real orgasms.

  Don’t make that face at me. I have my reasons.

  The unwitting donor has to be hot. Has to be. And smart, along with all the other factors that go without saying, of course, such as no history of mental illness.

  There’s no one I trust to guarantee me all of that in one package but Alaric Elias.

  Sparks is confidential and holds an eighty-nine percent success rate. Most clients find their match within the first to third date. But me? I’m picky. Much to Alaric’s irritation.

  Were I in “Fling,” I would’ve gone home with Blind Date #1. He was sex incarnate, but dumb. Were I in “Commitment,” I would’ve gone home with Blind Date #3. He was perfect husband material, but a control freak. Choosing the potential father of your child, however, is not that easy. He needs to be…everything.

  The crazy thing is, my dates are completely ignorant of my intentions. Most are from “Casual.” Casuals are the safest bet, the ones most likely to cringe at words like “marriage” and “children” and “future”. The ones who will run instead of “step-up”. Not that I plan on letting the potential candidate know when I’m knocked-up. Casuals are such a safe bet that all you have to do is ghost them to end things. They will never come looking and that’s exactly what I want.

  The waiter, a flustered young man, appears at my alcove, again. Red cheeks, chin zit, small eyebrow scar. “W-will it be just you, after all, Miss Bentley? Is there anything else I can get you? If you prefer, we could relocate you to one of the solo alcoves which comes equipped with a flat-screen.”

  Freaking Manhattan. Of course they would have a singles alcove with cable TV to make people feel even more alone and pathetic than they already are.

  “I’m perfectly fine where I am, thank you.” I give him a withering glare. “And yes, it’ll be just me. Bring me your best bottle of Malbec.”

  “Thank you, Miss Bentley—I mean, you’re welcome—Oh crap, I mean, at your service—Christ, I—”

  “Stop talking,” I say, keeping my voice gentle. I’m used to this kind of reaction from New Yorkers.

  With a sheepi
sh smile, he mumbles out an apology and scurries off like a frightened mouse.

  I shake my head and check my phone. Still nothing from Alaric.

  Irritated, I sit back and scan the restaurant as I sip a glass of water. Alaric’s chosen meet-up locations are usually secluded, intimate, high-end establishments that promise security and peace of mind. This restaurant is just that.

  While there are main floor seats, there’s also the option of alcove seats for those who prefer another layer of privacy. There’s even a string that, if tugged, would cause a sheer curtain to fall for added isolation. For me, this place is perfection.

  My idle observing comes to a stop at the steps that lead up to the alcoves section. There, being led by the hostess, is a swaggering man who, if the word playboy came with an accompanying image in the dictionary, would be the perfect representation.

  I scoff and take another sip of water, condensation dampening my fingertips. But I don’t—can’t—stop looking.

  Playboy’s hair is so platinum-blond it’s almost metallic, yet his eyebrows and groomed facial hair are a deep dark brown. Such a dangerously beautiful contrast. Bold, daring, fierce, as if he’s some kind of trend-setting runway model, or something.

  A prominent, angular jaw and full, kissable lips with a little puckered point on the upper lip. Brown dress shoes, dark denims with a ripped hole on one knee, brown belt to complement the shoes, and tucked-in white dress-shirt with sleeves rolled up to his elbows. Tall, built with the right proportion of lean muscle for his body type, a warm olive tan.

  Heads turn as he trails the hostess through the restaurant, cellphone pressed to his ear, eyes fixed on the hostess’s derriere.

  Typical. I snort and force my gaze away, checking my phone again. Nothing.

  Smart, sensible women know better than to even look in the direction of men like him. Unless you’re in for a fling, drama, or angst, it’s a waste of time. Men like him are conceited, self-centered, cocksure jerks who will still be juggling multiple women well into their sixties. As long as their face stays handsome, abs remain ripped, and their virility doesn’t wane, they will never settle down, convinced that there’s too much of them to give it all to just one person.

  I should know. I have a bestie who’s the definition of a player. A man so promiscuously virile that just one sex wouldn’t do. So he has both. A playboy who scores for both sides? Whoo boy. Look away, girl. Look away.

  I tap out another message to Alaric.

  Serena: So? Did Mr. Perfect Match fall into a manhole and break his leg?

  “Miss Bentley?”

  I glance up from my phone and find the hostess standing there. With Mr. Playboy.

  I raise a brow. “Yes?”

  She flashes me a face-splitting, wide-eyed Oh My God! grin and winks. “I believe this is your date.”

  I blink at the hostess. Then at Mr. Playboy. Then at the hostess again.

  Oh, hell no. NO. You have got to be kidding me. Perfect match? Is this some kind of a joke? I’m going to murder Alaric. I swear it!

  My face must display incredulous horror, because the hostess’s grin dies and she begins to stutter. “I-I’m sure he has an, um, explanation for being late. Please, have a seat, Mr. Sharpe. I’ll just, ah, let the waiter know the second party has arrived.” With that, she’s off before I can tell her there’s no need because I’m out of here.

  An awkward silence left in her wake, Mr. Playboy scowls down at me while I stare up at him with a look that I hope expresses, Not a chance in hell, buddy.

  He idly flips his phone over in his hand as he, with unconcealed irritation, points out, “You’re a redhead.”

  “Well, at least you’re not color-blind.”

  Vexation evident in the pinch of his brows and the downturn of his lips, he replies, “Sorry, you’re pretty and all, but I don’t do redheads. They’re stubborn, mouthy, and a downright pain in my ass. Michelle knows this. Why would she set me up with you? I asked for easy and fun, not trouble and psycho.”

  “Perfect.” My smile is saccharine. “Because I don’t do playboys. Especially ones with—wait, who’s Michelle?”

  He frowns. “Michelle? Our matchmaker? Plump Brit, about yay high?” He lifts his hand to just below his pectorals to indicate ‘yay high.’

  “I’m sorry, but I don’t know who that is.” I shake my head. “I’m with Sparks, and there’s no Michelle there. Get the hostess. Wrong blind date, thank God.”

  Moving to the railing overlooking the main floor, he catches the hostess’s attention and waves her up.

  “I think there’s been a bit of a mix up,” he tells her when she arrives at our section. “We’re from different companies.”

  “I, uh, I…” the hostess stutters, and I wouldn’t be surprise if it’s his face that’s got her so out of it. “We only have one booking for a blind date tonight, sir. As is custom with these services, reservations are made under the company’s names, and there’s a reservation for two under Sparks.”

  Playboy twists his lips to the side. “Can you check if a reservation was made under M. Nolan.”

  As the hostess nods and hurries off to check the books, Playboy leans his hip against the mosaic tiled column of the alcove, as if to avoid having to talk to me.

  Where the heck is that damn waiter with my wine?

  The intense silence is punctured by muffled ringing from my purse. I get out my phone and answer without preamble. “I’m over it, Alaric. Find another match.”

  “He fell into a manhole and broke his leg, Rena,” Alaric informs me in that deep, gruff voice of his. “Quite literally a block away from the restaurant.”

  “Ha. Nice one,” I say. “That’s my lie. I invented it, remember? Tell him he can go drown himself in a bucket of bleach.”

  “Rena?”

  “What?”

  “I’m serious. He’s at the hospital.”

  No way. “What?”

  “I have photo evidence. I’ll forward it to you,” he promises. “Heading to the hospital to check on him now. Let’s hope he’s not superstitious or anything.”

  “Uh, okay?”

  “Sorry, baby girl. Shit happens. I’ll keep you posted. Talk later.”

  “Oh, my God,” I whisper as I lower the phone from my ear. “I’m a witch.”

  A derisive snort reminds me that I’m not alone. “All redheads are.”

  I glance up, but he’s not even turned in my direction. Head down, fingers flying across his phone screen. “Evil, soul-sucking witches.”

  With an annoyed curl to my lip, I’m about to tell him to go stick it where the sun doesn’t shine, when the hostess returns with a disappointed smile.

  “You were right, Mr. Sharpe,” she says. “There was a reservation for two made under M. Nolan, but both parties should have been here an hour ago. We gave up the table.”

  Playboy pinches the bridge of his nose. “I came late. On purpose. Because in my experience, the women are always late. And you’re telling me—”

  “You’ve been stood up,” I finish for him.

  He shoots me a glare.

  I smile smugly.

  “I’m so sorry, Mr. Sharpe,” the hostess apologizes, though it’s not even her fault. “Would you like to sit and have a glass of wine, or…”

  I roll my eyes at the open, suggestive look she gives him. After all, his real date didn’t show.

  Blatant and unabashed, he rakes his gaze over her in return. I mean, she basically just gave him permission to eye-rape her. “What time do you get off?”

  Like a sweets-loving toddler, she sways from side to side. “An hour from now.”

  “A glass of wine it is then.” He winks and bites his lip. Then, “Here.”

  This gets my attention. “Excuse me?”

  Without permission, he enters my alcove, taking the seat across from me. “What’s the big deal, Red Witch? It’s not as if your frog is gonna show up.”

  The hostess flees.

  “Ah, I see,” I say
, “you want to sit here so you don’t look pathetic being stood up.”

  “No,” he denies. “I’m sitting here so you don’t look pathetic being stood up.”

  I bristle. “I’m not stood up. My date…he—”

  “Fell into a manhole and broke his leg on the way here?”

  Wha… How does he… “What?”

  He shrugs. “A plausibly implausible excuse I would use to get out of a date.”

  Wow. Guess I’m not as original as I thought. But Alaric swears this date isn’t lying. Hmph. I don’t know.

  Nevertheless… “You can’t sit here.”

  As if he didn’t hear me, he reaches across the table and picks up my glass, then picks up the water pitcher and refills the cup. Lifting the glass to his lips, he downs the entire thing.

  The nerve!

  “Look,” he says, setting the glass down. “I’ve had a long, grueling day. I came here to get fed and laid, so I could get up tomorrow and start my ridiculously awesome, sex-filled life all over again. As it turns out, I got stood up, and apparently so did you.”

  He pauses, as if expecting me to throw in a defense. When I don’t, he continues, “Fact is, I still need to get fed and laid. You’re not my type and I’m clearly not yours, so we should be able to fill our bellies in companionable silence, yes? Afterward, you’ll go home to your B.O.B, and I’ll go home with that tight little hostess over there. End of day. Tomorrow, a new tale. Care to point out the harm in that, Red Witch?”

  I stare at him in disbelief. Is he for real? Who the hell does he think he is? See? This is why I avoid jerks like him.

  I should just get up and leave, but I don’t. Because what I’ve belatedly realized is that this guy either doesn’t know who I am, or he’s so full of himself he just doesn’t care.

  I can’t remember the last time anyone spoke to me this way. It’s refreshing. How twisted is that? That I find someone being a jerkface asshole to me refreshing? I really ought to have him kicked out—because I can—but I don’t.

  What I do instead—surprisingly—is shrug. “Fine. Whatever.”

  He pours himself more water and sips while scrolling through his phone, as if it wouldn’t have mattered whether I said yay or nay. He’s having dinner here and that’s that.